Recently I have noticed that my moods are a little more manic and a lot more depressive. Getting over excited in situations. Talking too fast. Erratic. Meaning afterwards I’m overanalysing and thinking I’ve been out of order and rude. I’m just all over the place without any normality. Out of touch with reality. Out of touch with myself.
My cognitive function is deteriorating and things are becoming harder at work which in turn is getting me frustrated. I feel overweight and my belly is becoming rounder in my eyes, yet my my weight hasn’t changed nor my eating habits or appetite.
I’m highly irritable and the slightest thing annoys me. My body is aching because I’m constantly tensing my muscles. I’m pissed off with the world. Feel like I’m on edge.
Regards to the medication I am prescribed for Bipolar Disorder, I’m on an anticonvulsant, Depakote. 1,500mg per day. This is due to a episode of 3 Tonic seizures around 18 months ago. I have had EEGs and epilepsy was ruled out. This was the reason why I was prescribed the anticonvulsant. Lithium is the first choice medication for Bipolar Disorder. If the situation arises were it cannot be used, Depakote is prescribed. Maybe there’s a possibility that Lithium could be a little bit more effective for me?
In 1948 an Australian doctor and recently returned P.O.W, working alone in a disused kitchen, set out to find a treatment for the scourge of mankind – Manic Depression. His name was John Cade. The pioneer of Lithium Therapy 👏
My Bipolar Perspectives of a Unipolar World 
I know this was written in May. I’m sorry you’re having a rough go at it. I’m sure you’ve been thrown all kinds of suggestions that start with “Have you tried…?” I hope you find a more balanced flow. This energy can’t last forever. Take care.
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